Tuesday, May 25, 2010



All Along ,
I kept on telling myself it's time to let go it's time for everything to stop and everybody tried to brainwash me , I heard so much negative things about you but I dint put anything to heart but am I wrong? and you were the first guy after J that I felt really comfortable with but Im rather clueless what happen that it made us fall apart and I clearly knows that Im not your anybody from the start but at least a why you ain't talking to me anymore. After you , Idk why I couldnt like anybody else it's always your mermories that flashers thru . IMY so much afterall........

I miss the days when we were closer and having fun tgt no doubt I treated you hot &cold but you did that to me too , I miss the day you waited for me in school til you’ve gastric pain + the little silly things you always used to tease me and make me smile and your smile will always cheer me up and rmb you told me this “ you say you love me you say you miss me but your heart is always not with me “ maybe you were just kidding with me by saying that but at that time I wanted to tell you my heart is with you but im just afraid that you’re just toying around with me but now if I have the chance again i'll definitely tel you my heart is always with you and I nvr wanted to let you walk away I want everybody to see me with you , and maybe you have forgotten about what we used to share how much we have gone thru but I have not and I saw your nick your fb that time you sounded sad I wanted to ask why but I dint ,perharps you just treated me as somebody closer then friend and most probably it’s just me who’s been thinking too much all along I dont wna be seen like a pest.( Do you know why I dint call or text you daily , it's bcos I know you wil contact me first and I like it when you're looking for me , I wanted to make the first move first but Im just so shy to do it but when Im trying to build up my courage you weren't here anym. ) Now, Your no-longer by myside but I just wna tell you Your presence was the greatest thing , Your daily calls were the sweetest tone on my fone , and after xmas ,new year countdown I went down to meet you even though it's with the others but Im glad too cos you were the first guy I like that I spend those days with I nvr once spend those days with J, and when you told your friend im your girlf I felt totally sweet but I guess it's just a tease from you , after you left I tried to figure out a why to my questions I asked my friends they said you just treated me like a toy and I concluded that too but Idk why I just cant put you down let everything go ignore you cas I think I like you, and now I dont hope for anything but I just wna know " are you alright now , got everyday go school? ni kai xin mah? " , anyw im glad we were once that close and you shld have somebody you like already bah. Maybe you will feel that Im very irritating by saying all this but do you know by typing this I felt so thick skin :( and I guess you feel like scolding me now and lastly , you taught me something I wil always rmb , dont assume must ask and I like it when you were frustated when I assumed things which ain't true but it's over already , I know ._.
Anyw , maybe you will know im talking about you or maybe not or maybe you dont even read my blog anym but it doesnt matter cas I just wna write it down on my own accord , and ni yao kai xin yin wei ni kai xin jiu hao! :D
" If you still care , you will know what to do. "
Everything will be alright , maybe not today but eventually.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Time for bed.
Goodnight sweetdreams♥

Friday, May 21, 2010

PAINTBALL (Y)
._. Skipped work today , im seriously ill.
Actually Im only having muscle cramp but now dont know what happened ledded on cough / fever but fever has somehow subsided abit , i'll be back to work tmr :D and I've been slping thru the whole day! Hope I'l get well sooooooooon ~
I told myself to be strong,
& Im a strong girl .
Even if I've tears rolling off my cheeks
Even when Im facing problems which I couldn't handle well
Even if one day I fall badly
Even if everything fall apart
Even if I've nothing left
I'll be able to hide away and say I'M FINE.
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Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Hey, mister mister !
Happy bday siti [:
& Seriously , i love golden retiever(Y).

For as much as I tease,
This affection may be temporary.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

I lied to avoid ,

If you think so , I just got nothing to say or tell. Your question struck me and it made me felt stuck your direct approach just made me wordless/clueless it's just so sudden nothing came to my mind after that ._. Afteral , I just treated you as a close-friend of mine as simple as that I dint mean anything previously. I made it clear once and dint wna made it clear twice cas I dont know what to say I just felt like avoiding and I know Im a bastard for doing that you can blame me. Even if you wont I still hope that we can be friend , it's better this way cas you know i know you dont suit me i dont suit you.
Gooooooodnight , friend .

" 讓想念,不要再唱,不再傷"

Monday, May 10, 2010

Funneh lo (Y)

Yestd - Happy Mother Day! Bought mummy a red carnation......
Today's my off day , going out later. Tired to the max man ._. Pimples poping like popcorn ( non-stop ) awww! Anw immmm hungry now ): & yea , weather damn hot ah drink more water try to stay indoor ((:
Oh , Alright ...... I think I wna be a Kindergarden Tcher , most probably.
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"I'll always find out some facts about them no matter how much I feel like avoiding , somethings are meant to be and some are not meant to be. I wont cry anymore cas Im stronger than what you think for now. Im no longer that little girl who cry for things , i'll keep everything to my heart , seriously I could say - nothing matters to me anymore. It's either a let go situation or a cry-away situation or even a hold on situation . Im tired already. I dont know what happen just don't feel like talking much recently , colder than bfore. Bye ~"
Going to find things eat and out I go ........
Stay tune , i'll be back tonight *

Friday, May 7, 2010

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Neither A Pawn nor a Toy , my lousy character I know , im sorry.
 Today weather damn hot today weather damn cold today weather windy today weather abit moody , rmb to drink more water .  & seriously , im rather lazy to blog :O Anw! Happy Belated Bday Adeline Gf ♥. & my days recently have not been " lifeless " somehow not bad hahahahahaha. Waiting for somebody to finish bathing tsk! :D tmr gotta work pray hard I can wake up on time ~ and mother day is coming real sooon eh! Present hunt for your mum like asap ah , say you luv her too(Y) ! dont tell me you dont luv your mum heh :B finally , im going to " on the phone " then sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep ! tired :( my eye dont know why today not happy abit swollen ._. haishxsszszsxxsz ~
Nights , sweetdreams ~
" It's not you thats not good , it's me thats not the right one for you. "
I,
saw your msn nick - idk what I can do or say and its al my fault.
i'm willing to be your friend anytime when you're ready.